people

I go to work today and a friend of mine keeps trying to hook me up with this girl by the name Misty. She tells me that she wishes she had my phone number, because over the holiday Misty wanted to meet me bad. My friend continues to tell me what she looks like and what she was wearing and what kind of car she was driving and how much money her Grandparents have, Is all of this suppose to impress me. I find all of this kind of funny. I told my friend that I am in a relationship and that I am very happy with it I even told her about the ring and how much I spent and showed her the ring. I even told her how much my girlfriend means to me, I even told her that I don't cheat and what my thought are about cheaters.Don't get me wrong I have cheated when I dated years ago but thats before my husband, so I can't say much. So after all that she is still trying. So I went ahead and gave her my number but I told her that I will talk to her and that I will be friends with her and nothing more, I don't think my girlfriend would mind me being friend, but as soon as I feel like she is having a problem with it or I feel things might be going in the wrong direction I will say bye bye to Misty, Ive done it before and I will do it again. I won't risk my relationship for any girl. Lets talk about the mistakes my friend is making that I find to be turn offs. What Misty looks like I was told she dresses like a guy and that her hair is short and spiked, you are trying to hard to look and act like a guy and I have a problem with that I have a guy in my life and I diffently don't need some one who is trying to act like one. The car thing I was told she drives a new cadilac, thats fine, but her grandparents bought the car and that is not cool, all that tells me is that she is spoilled. I don't like people like that because I have taken me and Georges life from having nothing at all to having everything that we ever wanted and we worked are ass off to be where we are at this moment without the help of any one in our family. Grandparents and money well thats fine, but I have Grandparents who have money to but I don't let them spoil me either. You can not take money with you when you die. But what you can do is influence and and help and be there for the people who means the most to you and then when you die you will leave some thing more important to any one and thats a memory. I was told she was an aggressive woman and well My girfriend is agrresive enough for me to handle. So friend give it up, and Misty you don't have a chance because my heart belongs to my Girlfriend and I am sure when you found out about the ring that had to tell you, you have no chance. 

Dropping off the planet

I feel like just giving up on every thing big and small. Everytime I get my hopes up they seem just in a few hours or days they become nothing but a thought. Dissapointment seems to happen on a daily basis.Every great once in a while I feel like just running away from all the hopes and wishes and just the little thing that would just make me happy. Some times but not often I see that little door open an on the other side is a place where dreams come true and and plans never get canceled and every one is enjoying every bit of there lives, but as always I get close to that open door and it slams shut on me. Some days are harder then other.It just seems like My life has been just one dissapiontment after a nother and its just getting worse and it all started about three and a half years ago. Lately some days I am in daze and others I am just numb and others I just want to dropp off the face of this planet, A lot of times I feel like I mean nothing to my friends because they always want to be some where else or they are in a hurry. So I stopped letting them be a big part in my life because they just don't care anymore, So I don't care any more either.I am tired of setting some time aside for them and bending over backward to make them happy. when they show me that I matter and that they care and set some time aside instead of always on the go maybe I will change my mind about them.

I hate people